Thursday, February 28, 2013

Give up the good, go for the Great

The last day of February.  I cant believe the month is already over! With the end of the month, of course, comes my monthly recap.  Again, I'm not pleased with myself.  Ive found myself playing with that dreaded "L" word on the weekends...LAZY! I know what i need to do, I'm just not being very proactive.  I need to start eating healthier, Ive fallen victim to carbs and lattes again, basically unnecessary calories that my body does not need, and just when my weight was finally going down again! Ugh! I also stopped lifting this month.  I got freaked out when i gained a few pounds.  I know it was just muscle and that muscle gain (aka weight gain) happens when you are lifting and feeding your muscles/body properly.  I just couldn't take the stress though.  The scale is like a parent i fear, like when you're a kid and you're afraid of getting caught when you do something wrong because you don't want to get into trouble, well that's the scale. It flat out tells me if I've done something wrong, shows me a number i don't want to see, and then i have to dole out a "punishment" that can compensate for what the problem is.  Sometimes that means a lower calorie intake with a higher calorie amount burned per day. Well, who am i kidding, that's what i always end up doing.  The calorie amounts vary though.  I'm finally down 5lbs again this week, whew! Now i just have about 15 more to go! I'm aiming to be just a bit below 100lbs (90). With hard work and perseverance i will get there.  Ive been there many times before, i just need to refocus and take things more seriously. I can already hear people moaning and groaning, "but you're so pretty" "You're so skinny already" "You don't need to lose weight"  Okay, i know, but please, this is my body and my way of living so just let me do me. I don't tell you how to live. Alright enough of that rambling...

My last entry was the day after my birthday and right before Yoga class.  I am falling head over heels in love with Yoga. The salon i work at, has a Yoga studio on the floor above us and I'm thinking of doing a drop in class (you register online and then show up for the class).  That or i might pay the monthly unlimited fee and then i can go to as many classes that month as id like.  I swear i would just live in this building.  Id go from work to Yoga to the gym and repeat.  Nothing wrong with that, id be doing things i love.   Fridays class was more challenging then the week priors class.  Again, i was being instructed to do more of the "advanced" techniques with the poses/moves.  Each class leaves me wanting more and excited for the next week.  This week, we wont be having class (Our instructor is unavailable. But, we are all going to still get together and do something.  I was asked to lead tomorrow night and am thinking of just finding some beginners poses and putting together and hour workout).  After Yoga class, i was playing with the idea of going to the gym but wasn't sure i wanted to.  I walked past the doors and then turned back, I felt awkward, i just stood there indecisive as to what i wanted to do.  I eventually choose to go in.  I'm glad i did as Saturday and Sunday i did not work out.  My workout Friday night wasn't very intense.  Yoga had me moving in ways that affected my knee so i wasn't wanting to overexert myself.  I did some lifting for about 30 minutes, just arms. I alternate my lifting (when i actually do lift) between arms, legs, and then do back/core together.  Before lifting, i did a small run.  My knee was killing me.  I didn't even make it to my usual minimum of a 5k.  I ran 2.03miles in 13:58 with an avg. pace of 6'52"  M1:6'56" M2:6'48"   Getting myself to run the full 2 miles was a task in itself.  My knee started screaming at me 1/2 a mile in (i also had forgotten my knee brace at home this day which didn't help matters in the least bit), but as Ive mentioned before, I'm not very good at listening to the signs of pain and i make myself push through things.  I knew i couldn't run past 2 miles though so i made myself stop, as much as it disappointed me to do so. 

That run, was the last run of my weekly goal.  I did make my goal of 20+ miles that week, finishing with 21.21 miles ran. Yeay! This week however, I'm not going to make that goal. My knee is in terrible pain and i need to allow myself the chance to let it heal again.

As i mentioned earlier, i took the weekend off from working out.  It was nice to just hang out with friends and relax. Monday, i had a meeting at 11am, and with having no driving privileges walked the mile and a half to get there.  Then of course walked back.  I was very lucky that Monday was a nice day out. After my meeting i went to straight to the gym.  I wanted to accomplish everything right away that day so i could spend my night at home relaxing.   Monday i did an hour on the StairMaster, or 8.21miles, i biked 4miles and then i ran.  Run was 3.03miles in 20:09 with an avg. pace of 6'39"  M1:6'41" M2:6'39" M3:6'36"  My knee was hurting but i told myself i had to get in my minimum. 

Tuesday, February 26, i went to the gym after work. I decided not to run so i did a 16.52mile bike ride and 30 minutes on the elliptical.  Yesterday, Wednesday the 27th, i did not make it to the gym.  I did however trudge over 2 miles in the sloppiest snowfall of the year.  It was horrible, but i had to get some errands done before i went into work.  The lesson i learned from that experience, I need new winter boots.  Today, i am working all day (about 12-13hours) and then have dinner plans right after.  I was in the mind set of "well i guess there's another day missing the gym" but, decided to get my act together and set my alarm early! I set it for 430 and snoozed til 530.  I did get to the gym though and I'm so happy i did!! My time was limited so i didn't get much accomplished but i burned over 700cals so now i don't feel guilty drinking my nonfat latte.  I did 20 minutes on the elliptical and then i did 41minutes on the StairMaster.  At that point, it was 645 and i needed to shower and get ready for work.  My knee hasn't been feeling any better, its actually been hurting more.  No bueno :(

February'a overall stats:
Miles ran: 43.7 Avg pace: 6'44" Total time: 4:54.32

Hm, well that's all my shenanigans for the week.  Until next time..."Don't look for your dreams to come true; Look to become true to your dreams" -Michael Beckwith






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