Thursday, September 20, 2012

No trophy, no flowers, no flash bulbs, no wine

Hi everyone! It's been about two weeks since my last blog, which in turn means i haven't really had much to blog about.  I was doing a great job running at the beginning of the month, I felt motivated, rejuvenated and ready to conquer the world. Sounds great, right!? So what happened to me!?...honestly I'm still trying to figure that out.  I got hit with a wave of laziness, but its more than just being lazy.  I started to think to much, and when i think, i over think and get completely stuck in my head. When i do that, i ultimately take myself down this path of deep sadness and self deprecation.  When I'm feeling that way, i don't have the motivation to do anything except lay around and mope, thus, i haven't been out running. I know, boo hoo.

Thursday, Sept 6th, I got in a good run. I ran 3.05miles at an average pace of 7'18" with a time of 22:18  I had been really stuck in my head that day, so i made a point of getting out of it.  I only worked until 2 so after work and a brief nap, i geared up and headed out!  Having been lazy and not running the day prior, i was feeling like a whale. I ran along the lake making a point to stop at the "workout equipment" on the lake front.  I did 30 minutes of abs and strength training and than finished up with a small run.  1.01miles.  I ran SUPER slow but it was more of a warm down run than anything so I'm not going to freak out.  I ran in 8:13.  That day was good, i felt a TON better after having gotten in 4.06miles and some other working out. 

After that day, things nose dived. I feel victim to depression and misery.  Misery loves company, and it sure as hell had me as its companion for more than a few days.   My next run was 4 days later, Sept 10th.  (last week Monday).  Due to my job, Monday is my Sunday, so i was off work and had nothing to do.  Running is a great way to fill time! I went on a noon run; i like to run when the sun is at its peak so i can feel the heat, I don't like having to cross the street to avoid shade.  I enjoy a good sweat and a great way to achieve that is to run with the sun beating down on me.  I ran 4.04miles in 29:43 with an average pace of 7'21".   Mile times are as follows: M1: 7'07" M2: 7'25" M3: 7'36" M4: 7'16"

Of course, after Monday came the work week, and me being my typical self, i put tons of pressure and stress on myself to get things done and done perfectly. I filled up my days with too much to do and left myself no time to run until Saturday.  Saturday, i had a daddy-daughter date. My dad and i went out for breakfast at a place called The Pancake House (not to be confused with the chain ihop)  I had the chocolate chip pancakes :) MMMMmmm delish!  It comes with 5 medium or regular sized pancakes, a side of chocolate sauce AND a side whipped cream.  I was in food heaven.  After breakfast, we headed down to my apartment to watch Milwaukee's infamous "Al's run and walk"  The route for the race runs right past my apartment, so My dad and i decided we'd stand along the curb and cheer on the runners. I had a good friend who was running and i wanted to be able to yell out some extra encouragement to him.  He was so excited to see me. It was an awesome feeling knowing I had positively impacted someone.  Even just for a brief moment.   After watching everyone running, i felt motivated and ready to run myself.  I am making a point to sign up for the race next year! Its a 5 mile race, so i know i can handle that.

As soon as my dad and i said goodbye, I idashed up to my apartment and quickly changed and headed out the door. I needed to get myself going right away, before i risked losing my motivation and becoming a couch potato.  I turned up my music and got my Nike+ started. Recently, I created a running mix for myself and said goodbye to Pandora radio.  I switched to an iPhone at the end of July and it took me until the first week of September to actually put music on it and than another week until i created my workout play list.  So, i had the sun shining and my tunes going and i was off.  I ran my old route, which i now have memorized as to where the "mile markers" are.  I did 3.1 miles in 21:45 average pace was 7'00".  Miles times: M1: 7'07" M2: 6'57" M3: 7'01"   I made a point for that run to finish right back at my apartment, however, once finished, i didn't feel ready to be done.  So i decided i wouldnt be; I took 5 minutes to stretch and than turned my music back on and started again.  I was feeling sore and my muscles were tired.  My body could tell i hadn't run in a few days, and it does not like that feeling!  My muscles ached and i got pretty mad at myself for having not run (and as i write i haven't run in 2 days).  I ran 3.7 miles more in 28:19  average pace was 7'39"  my first mile was the slowest and fell in the 8 min range the other 2.7 were in the 7 min range.   I felt great after finishing.  My body was sore and i knew i had actually accomplished something for the first time in a few days.  Sunday, i didn't run. GAHHH!! Monday, i was out running.  I had nothing to do, again, my day off.  I was lucky that the weather was in the 70s and the sun was shining :)  I ran 7.02miles in 53:55 with an average pace of 7'41"  In the process of this run, i encountered a substantial amount of inclines.   Mile times are as follows: M1: 7'13" M2: 7'14" M3: 7'35" M4: 7'32" M5: 8'05" M6: 8'21" M7: 7'44    Not the best at maintaining pace, but i did 7 in under an hour so i will take that.  I probably could have squeezed in 8 if i stepped up my pace.   And now, here i am, its Wednesday and i haven't run since.  I had the opportunity to run yesterday, and in the afternoon, but was too afraid of the wind and the cold.  I don't deal with cold very well.  Today, i didn't have to be to work until one, so again, i could've gotten up and run, but instead i slept in, til 11. Holy geebs! I am normally up by 8 on my days off, so having slept until 11 was very shocking.  i guess my body was trying to tell me something.  I woke up feeling good and not tired, which is a change.  i normally have to drag myself out of bed and hook myself up to an IV of coffee.  Tomorrow i wont run either as im at work from 745a-8p. Friday-Monday i have no excuses though! And the work week will be back to normal next week, as in i wont be having to close, so again, i have no excuse to not be running.  I really need to step it up.  I set a goal for myself to lose 10lbs this month and run 135 miles.  Ive lost 0lbs and my stats to date for this month are as follows:  47.2 mi run with an overall avg. pace of 7'38".   I have 11 days to run 88 miles if i want to make my goal. Looks like ill be running 8 miles a day fro the rest of the month.  I dont like failing, even when its just a goal ive set for myself. Who knows, maybe saturday ill get up super early, run 10 miles, rest and than run 10 more later that day.  I have odd spurts of intense motivation.

until next time...may your shoelaces not come untied

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